Thankfulness

Give thanks  to The Lord for He is good

His love endures

forever

What can I be thankful for today? There is so much. So much God has already given me to be thankful for that I should not stop praising Him for the rest of my life.

For saving my life.

for the husband He created, just for me.

for my children in whom I see Jesus everyday.

for the many, many testimonies of His love, His grace,  His mercy, at work in my life.

for the way He made me

me, just the way He wanted. Just the way He planned.

for  the people He continues to place in my life at just the right time.

for always giving my heart a song to sing.

for the Holy Spirit's power

and prayers on my behalf.

for Jesus' advocacy.

for the beauty of creation.

for the promise of heaven.

for His unfailing Word. 

Give thanks to The Lord for He is good,

His love endures 

Forever!

Thankfulness

We can choose to focus on the problems or negativity in our lives or we can focus on Jesus the author and perfecter of our faith.

I have made a conscience decision to focus on Christ here in Haiti. I am choosing to silence the beast of my flesh that wants to look at negative things. Each day will hold it's own challanges. It is up to me how I will respond. 

I wrote this in April of last year. 

I need to remember this.

Every

Day!

How easy it is to become distracted. How easy it is to lose focus, to become discouraged, to let seeds of doubt and bitterness set in.

We all do it. That too is something to remember, because for me, the next thing will be guilt and condemnation. Self pity, self loathing. No longer focused on Him, the focus becomes me.

Wisdom?

Years ago I remember thinking about how much I love to write and that some day I would be wise enough to write wonderful, 

spiritual,

deep meaningful

things.

Experience would bring Wisdom.

The older I get, and the more experiences I have, has brought me to one conclusion;

I have a lot to learn about everything. Especially about myself.

I JUST NEED A PLACE WHERE I CAN BE BRUTALLY HONEST

Because if I am being honest. I don't like this...

not one little bit.

I see the pain. I see the poverty.  I see the needs. 

I'm not blind. Even the blind could see it, hear it, smell it, touch it.

But

I'm not doing anything.

I hate it. If I am being honest with you

and

with 

me.

I 

hate

it!

I despise it. I don't want it. I don't want this life living here.

I want to go home.

To a place where I felt that my gifts were being

used.

To a place where my living room was filled with lost souls, searching, reaching, receiving, laughing, and being loved.

I'm trapped.

There is no way out. Just days. Days that are 

lonely and bleed into the next.